Showing posts with label Happy Birthday. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Happy Birthday. Show all posts

Sunday, July 11, 2021

Happy 1st Birthday, Roua!



Last weekend we celebrated our Roua baby’s 1st birthday! It was a beautiful day, joyous and heartwarming. All our friends were content and happy, as were we and Roua seemed to be as well. It was a sunny Saturday afternoon, perfect summer weather for a garden sourdough pizza party! 

I ended up making 8 pizzas, just as I had planned! Go Penny! I had fed Penny a few days before, mixed the dough and then just started cranking out pizzas on the morning of Roua’s bday. It worked out really well with the timing, and with a few friends coming later, I was able to take a break and enjoy the party, making the last two pizzas in the evening. 

I had made a few chanterelle pizzas with creme fraiche and chives from the garden. The chanterelles we had harvested a few autumns ago in the mountains across from our house. I had rehydrated them and they were just as delicious. The other pizzas varied, margarita with just tomato sauce and basil from my potted basil, then a veggie pizza with summer veggies of courgette (zucchini), aubergine (eggplant), onions and garlic, always garlic, can’t forget the garlic! They were topped with parmesan cheese and mozzarella and emmentel cheeses. One pizza had just onions and garlic and parmesan,  and it was delicious too. Overall, I received good compliments about the pizzas, mostly at how tasty the dough was. Thank you Penny! Roua thoroughly enjoyed her slices of pizzas too! 



Celebrating Roua brought friends from near and far. Our neighbors down by the bridge who also have a little baby were not able to join since they had another party to attend, but Dorian made an appearance and gifted Roua a drawing he had made of her the other day when she was over playing at their house. It was a beautiful piece of art and on the back, Lolita had written the sweetest messsage for Roua. Jorris' and my heart melted. Dorian stayed for a drink and then had to run, but his presence and their present for Roua was so touching. 

From far our friends from Digne came. Lise, Roua’s American bestie and her mama, Hilary, my American bestie and Papa Franck came. Lise had also just turned 1 two days before Roua! We were in the same birth preparation class with the same midwife. It’s been so wonderful and healing to have an American bestie like Hilary to write to and talk with, sharing in the experiences of Motherhood together. I am so grateful the Universe brought us together. 

After a delicious lunch including various salads from our guests, it was time for cake. I had made strawberry cake with lemon curd and vanilla buttercream frosting. Although we had a good strawberry harvest this year, more on that later, there wasn’t enough for the cake. But I had happened to see Lolita the day before explaining my predicament casually, thinking I would just stick with lemon curd, and she offered her garden strawberries which are an incredibly fragrant and sweet variety, mara de bois, the essence of strawberry-ness. I am so grateful for the community we live in. 




Of course, it was just like me to have never made a layered cake before and just make 2.5 on the first try. I stayed up until 2 am the night before the party and quite frankly was running on adrenaline at some point, but I pulled through and am so proud of my cakes! I really wanted to make Roua her own smash cake for her birthday and that goal just stuck with me, so I had to do it, or at least try. I am so happy with how it turned out and it tasted pretty good too. I did every step from scratch. The only thing I did “ahead of time” and only a day before, was make the buttercream. But now I know that you can make all these little steps a few days, sometimes even weeks before if you freeze them! I will take this into consideration the next birthday! 





We sang happy birthday, both in French and English. During the serenade, Roua had her serious face on, the one with the wrinkle between her eyebrows. She got that from her papa. It was so funny. I had made a candle from our beeswax. The wind blew it out. Philippe had sweetly tucked the wick between the rock and sign down at the bridge for me the day before on his way to work. See? Amazing community we live in, right?

At first, Roua was more interested in eating the candle then the cake and it took her some time to warm up, and help to break into, but eventually, she tasted her cake and I think rather enjoyed it. It was so satisfying for me to witness. What was more satisfying was how our friends enjoyed it too. I managed to save a few pieces for those friends who couldn’t make it. And had a sliver with some coffee for myself the next morning. 








Roua opened some sweet presents, played in the kiddie pool with the other kiddos and fell asleep wrapped in a towel in Sylvaine’s arms. Party well done. Then, a sprinkle of rain came, so we went inside and friends began to leave. Dan and Sylvaine stayed for tea and coffee and we got to catch up on each other’s lives, how our trip to the US had been in May, my brother’s wedding, their home improvement projects and summer plans. It was nice just to sit with them. After they went home, we had a few hours just to relax and then the last guests showed up, Philippe and Celine. I fired up the oven again and made the last 2 pizzas. We ended up having a candle-it dinner in the garden. Roua was in bed. 

And Philippe, always with thoughtful poetic gifts, gifted Roua a frame of honey from one of his hives from Roua! This is where Roua is named after actually, this natural place in the mountains where the dirt is red and where back in the day when we had first met, Jorris and I were just two wwoofers helping out Philippe with this hives there. Roua tasted her gift the next day and I’d say she appreciated every drop of the golden liquid on her little fingers. 





Reality turned out better than my visions for her birthday. Just seeing and feeling all the love Roua has all around her from all these truly genuine and caring people made me feel so happy, that she is so loved. And, actually, this was her 3rd party! She actually had 2 while we were in CA and also showered with love from all her cousins and Great Aunties and Uncles. I suppose as a parent, knowing your child is cared for and loved by more than just you is an assuring and easeful feeling.  

It was just what we needed as a family and couple. The bee season has been quite intense this year, honey flow is excellent but that means so much work and only us, so balancing family life with work life has been challenging for Jorris. As for me, watching over Roua most of the time has been challenging too. But the good energy we got from the party set us up into a better place, rekindling our spirits, reminding us of why we chose this life to begin with. Seeing friends and getting together to celebrate our daughter was just what we needed to reset perspective on our life here, to step back from the everyday chaos and just admire for a second the beauty of it all. When I take a moment to step back from the chaos of daily life and routine, and look at Roua, it’s such magic that she exists, that she moves with her own life force, that she smiles and talks and laughs and climbs and has even taken her first few steps. In just one year this sweet little baby I birthed is evolving everyday into her own little person, little but with big personality. 




I suppose it’s our own birthdays also, in a way. Roua’s 1st birthday marks my first year as a Mother and Jorris' as a Father. I take a deep breath to reflect briefly after typing that. What a whirlwind of wondrous and wild experiences, what suffering, what beauty, what growth. Thank you Roua for giving us a chance to celebrate you my love and for one year of magic with you. Mama and Papa love you so much! Happy Birthday, honey!


Thursday, November 26, 2020

Happy 32 & Thanksgiving

Hiking with my baby girl. 

Today is my birthday. I'm 32. It's a special birthday because it also falls on Thanksgiving; and this Thanksgiving I have something extraordinarily wonderful in my life to be thankful for that I never had all the 31 Thanksgivings before today, my daughter, Roua. 

I am writing from bed since Jorris just brought me breakfast in bed. Sweet pears from our neighbor's tree, yogurt, a slice of my sourdough bread with a slather of peanut butter, topped with sliced bananas, and to finish, drizzled with our fall mountain honey and a pinch of black sesame seeds. I sip coffee, real coffee, with a bit of cream. Roua is with Papa and I hear them talking in the living room. My heart smiles. 


My loves.


It's an odd feeling. I have to admit. I don't have that jubilant, Christmas is here feeling in my belly. I don't have the urge to spring out of bed and announce to the world "It's my birthday!". I have so much to be thankful for, grateful for in my life, though I feel a little blue. Perhaps it's because I miss my family back in the states so much and nostalgically think of how we would celebrate today together with turkey and stuffing, pumpkin pie, the works. How I yearn for the mingling of those old big family gatherings I now realize I always took for granted. How I wish for just one of those gatherings. What I would give for a room bustling with laughter and joy, stories told over humble and delicious plates of food, tables and tables spread with carpets of gorgeous food. Of course, we are not alone. The current state of the world stage with the corona virus casts a dark shadow, for everyone, and I send light and love to all those families affected. 

Thanksgiving isn't celebrated here in France, though I usually make a Thanksgiving dinner with our friends. This year though, I am feeling a bit tired and the thought of hosting just did not feel appealing nor relaxing. I want Roua to experience Thanksgiving, but at the cost of her mama feeling stressed and not fun to be around, I decided to follow my heart and not host a dinner. My friends were more than understanding. This will be the first Thanksgiving in my life without a dinner or traditions, except Jorris sweetly insists on making a pumpkin pie from one of our own garden pumpkins, which he is waiting for me to make with him after I post this! Perhaps, even without all the usual traditional Thanksgiving fixings, this could still be a meaningful one. 

This moment is all I need. 

It's just a different way of celebrating. And different can be just as beautiful, if not more. I intend to spend my day being present with my family and thinking of all the wonderful people in my life and all the life experiences that I am thankful for, knowing that I will get to see my loved ones one day soon enough. I intend on taking the day real slow, going on a hike with my husband and baby girl along the river, discovering somewhere new, maybe have a picnic? The sun is shining outside, what more could I wish for. Shouldn't we be thankful everyday?

Happy Thanksgiving to you wherever you are today and cheers to however you are celebrating this day of thanks. 




*photos by me.